🦓 Day 26: Cushing’s Awareness Challenge 2018

I first saw a similar image to this one with the saying Life. Be in it at a recreation center when my son was little.  At the time, it was “Duh, of course I’m in it”.

The original image was one a couple males, a couple females and a dog walking/running.  No folks in wheelchairs, no older folks and certainly no zebras.

It would be nice to have everyone out there walking or running but that’s not real life, at least in the Cushie world.  It’s been a long time since I’ve really been In My Life – maybe it’s time to get back.

A dear friend who has not one, but two forms of cancer was traveling throughout Europe for the first time after her husband’s death wrote:

Some final words before I turn in for the night. If there is a spark of desire within you to do something which is not contrary to God’s Holy Law, find a way to make it happen. All things are possible and blessings abound for those who love Him. Life is such an adventure. Don’t be a spectator – live every single moment for Him and with Him.

Somedays, it’s hard even getting up in the morning but I’m trying.  I’m taking Water Aerobics for Arthritis and I try to go to class 3 times a week (I only miss for doctor appointments). I got a couple “part-time” jobs several years ago, my son and I will play at Steinway Hall in NYC again in June. We have plans to go to the Norfolk International Tattoo again this weekend (I’ll miss water aerobics this Friday).

This is the one and only life I’ll ever have and I want to make the most of it, to the best of my ability!

 

⁉️ Myths and Facts about Cushing’s: Cushing’s Syndrome/Disease can be healed or cured

Myth: Cushing’s Syndrome/Disease can be healed or cured through change in diet or exercise.

myth-busted

Fact: NO! Caloric intake or lack of exercise has NO impact on weight gain and/ or loss in persons with Cushing’s.

Saying that someone “cheated” on their diet may seem reasonable to some as a reason for weight gain but I assure you that a candy bar or a piece of pie does not make a person with Cushing’s gain weight or get sick. Excess cortisol is the reason for Cushing’s symptoms. Treating the disease is the only way to alleviate symptoms.

The first line of treatment with the highest rate of remission is currently surgery to remove the tumor (s) from the pituitary, adrenal gland, or ectopic source.

🦓 Day 1: Cushing’s Awareness Challenge 2018

April is always Cushing’s Awareness Challenge month because Dr. Harvey Cushing was born on April 8th, 1869.

30-posts

Thanks to Robin for this wonderful past logo!  I’ve participated in these 30 days for Cushing’s Awareness several times so I’m not quite sure what is left to say this year but I always want to get the word out when I can.

As I see it, there have been some strides the diagnosis or treatment of Cushing’s since last year.  More drug companies are getting involved, more doctors seem to be willing to test, a bit more awareness, maybe.


April Fool's Day

How fitting that this challenge should begin on April Fool’s Day.  So much of Cushing’s  Syndrome/Disease makes us Cushies seem like we’re the April Fool.  Maybe, just maybe, it’s the doctors who are the April Fools…

Doctors tell us Cushing’s is too rare – you couldn’t possibly have it.  April Fools!

All you have to do is exercise and diet.  You’ll feel better.  April Fools!

Those bruises on your legs?  You’re just clumsy. April Fools!

Sorry you’re growing all that hair on your chin.  That happens as you age, you know.  April Fools!

Did you say you sleep all day?  You’re just lazy.  If you exercised more, you’d have more energy. April Fools!

You don’t have stretch marks.  April Fools!

You have stretch marks but they are the wrong [color/length/direction] April Fools!

The hump on the back of your neck is from your poor posture. April Fools!

Your MRI didn’t show a tumor.  You couldn’t have Cushing’s. April Fools!

This is all in your mind.  Take this prescription for antidepressants and go home.  April Fools!

If you have this one surgery, your life will get back to normal within a few months. April Fools!

What?  You had transsphenoidal surgery for Cushing’s?  You wasted your time and money. April Fools!

I am the doctor.  I know everything.  Do not try to find out any information online. You could not have Cushing’s.  It’s too rare…  April FOOL!

All this reminds me of a wonderful video a message board member posted a while ago:

So now – who is the April Fool?  It wasn’t me.  Don’t let it be you, either!

Day 26: Cushing’s Awareness Challenge 2017

I first saw a similar image to this one with the saying Life. Be in it at a recreation center when my son was little.  At the time, it was “Duh, of course I’m in it”.

The original image was one a couple males, a couple females and a dog walking/running.  No folks in wheelchairs, no older folks and certainly no zebras.

It would be nice to have everyone out there walking or running but that’s not real life, at least in the Cushie world.  It’s been a long time since I’ve really been In My Life – maybe it’s time to get back.

A dear friend who has not one, but two forms of cancer was traveling throughout Europe for the first time after her husband’s death wrote:

Some final words before I turn in for the night. If there is a spark of desire within you to do something which is not contrary to God’s Holy Law, find a way to make it happen. All things are possible and blessings abound for those who love Him. Life is such an adventure. Don’t be a spectator – live every single moment for Him and with Him.

Somedays, it’s hard even getting up in the morning but I’m trying.  I’ve tried Water Aerobics for People with Arthritis and I actually went to class twice a week, I got a “part-time” job several years ago, my son and I will play at Steinway Hall in NYC again in June, we have plans for another trip to Scotland (But we won’t get to see/hear the Edinburgh Tattoo again this time).  This year, we plan to try to go to Lockerbie, as well!

This is the one and only life I’ll ever have and I want to make the most of it, to the best of my ability!

 

Myth: Cushing’s Syndrome/Disease can be healed or cured

Myth: Cushing’s Syndrome/Disease can be healed or cured through change in diet or exercise.

myth-busted

Fact: NO! Caloric intake or lack of exercise has NO impact on weight gain and/ or loss in persons with Cushing’s.

Saying that someone “cheated” on their diet may seem reasonable to some as a reason for weight gain but I assure you that a candy bar or a piece of pie does not make a person with Cushing’s gain weight or get sick. Excess cortisol is the reason for Cushing’s symptoms. Treating the disease is the only way to alleviate symptoms.

The first line of treatment with the highest rate of remission is currently surgery to remove the tumor (s) from the pituitary, adrenal gland, or ectopic source.

Day 1: Cushing’s Awareness Challenge 2017

April is always Cushing’s Awareness Challenge month because Dr. Harvey Cushing was born on April 8th, 1869.

30-posts

Thanks to Robin for this wonderful past logo!  I’ve participated in these 30 days for Cushing’s Awareness several times so I’m not quite sure what is left to say this year but I always want to get the word out when I can.

As I see it, there have been some strides the diagnosis or treatment of Cushing’s since last year.  More drug companies are getting involved, more doctors seem to be willing to test, a bit more awareness, maybe.


April Fool's Day

How fitting that this challenge should begin on April Fool’s Day.  So much of Cushing’s  Syndrome/Disease makes us Cushies seem like we’re the April Fool.  Maybe, just maybe, it’s the doctors who are the April Fools…

Doctors tell us Cushing’s is too rare – you couldn’t possibly have it.  April Fools!

All you have to do is exercise and diet.  You’ll feel better.  April Fools!

Those bruises on your legs?  You’re just clumsy. April Fools!

Sorry you’re growing all that hair on your chin.  That happens as you age, you know.  April Fools!

Did you say you sleep all day?  You’re just lazy.  If you exercised more, you’d have more energy. April Fools!

You don’t have stretch marks.  April Fools!

You have stretch marks but they are the wrong [color/length/direction] April Fools!

The hump on the back of your neck is from your poor posture. April Fools!

Your MRI didn’t show a tumor.  You couldn’t have Cushing’s. April Fools!

This is all in your mind.  Take this prescription for antidepressants and go home.  April Fools!

If you have this one surgery, your life will get back to normal within a few months. April Fools!

What?  You had transsphenoidal surgery for Cushing’s?  You wasted your time and money. April Fools!

I am the doctor.  I know everything.  Do not try to find out any information online. You could not have Cushing’s.  It’s too rare…  April FOOL!

All this reminds me of a wonderful video a message board member posted a while ago:

So now – who is the April Fool?  It wasn’t me.  Don’t let it be you, either!

How Cushing’s has broken my body

It isn’t April anymore, but 2014 week’s events have inspired another post by Catherine trying to explain a few specific limitations and misunderstandings:

From http://muskegfarm.blogspot.com/2014/05/how-cushings-has-broken-my-body.html

 

I was planning to take a decent break after the whole “post every day in April for Cushing’s Awareness Month” thing, but I somehow woke up knowing I needed to get this thought (and information) out there…

When my exhaustion comes up or people are around me a while, I continue to be told/asked things like:
“Have you tried walking?”
“If you did a little extra each day, you’d build muscle.”
“Stress hormones are the problem?  Well, stop stressing!”
“I know you’re tired, but if you don’t exercise, you’ll lose muscle and gain weight.”
“Are you counting calories?  Not doing much, no wonder you’re gaining weight.”

I know these questions stem from ignorance about the disease and some people really are wanting to be helpful.  But it really is counter-intuitive, I’m not making that up. And when people feel the need to say these things to me it still hurts my feelings a bit even when I remember that.  It just reminds me that they haven’t learned the basics about my disease, and it still feels as though they are blaming my symptoms on me again…like I’m a fat, lazy, idiot.

Who doesn’t know you exercise to maintain and gain muscle?  That you lose it if you don’t use it?  That eating too much (or incorrectly) causes weight gain?  That in healthy people, expending energy in the form of exercise can actually increase your overall energy in the long-run?

Seriously, my body is broken.  These “normal” systems just don’t work.

Cushing’s causes the demineralization of bones.  Cushies break bones very easily.  Ever heard of someone waking up to a broken ankle with no trauma?  Yep.  Breaking ribs just rolling over in bed?  That too.  Imagine that isn’t an 80 year old, but a 35 or 45 year old.  We develop osteopenia and osteoporosis as part of the disease process, and sometimes that is the first time doctors take notice that something abnormal is going on in our bodies.  I have a friend who is paralyzed because of broken vertebrae thanks to this disease.  It’s horrible.  And it isn’t his fault.

Now, imagine that your body also metabolizes your own muscles.  Really.  No amount of exercise can stop that, only curing the disease can…and then you have the long, daunting task of trying to rebuild amidst pain, exhaustion, and weakness.  I have a supplement that *might* help SLOW it but cannot stop it.  This is why people with my disease tend to have skinny arms and legs.  The first muscles to go (dramatically, anyway) are the quads and biceps.  It becomes difficult/impossible to walk up stairs, to stand unassisted from a squat or to get up from a seated position without using your arms.  And as far as the biceps go, one of the first things people notice is the inability to open lids…that requires your upper arm muscles more than you’d think.  As an example, I can’t open about every 3rd Gatorade lid these days.  It is absurd!  Something so simple, and I can’t do it.  And trust me, I open those bottles multiple times a day, every day, yet I am still losing that ability.  (I NEED the salt to raise my BP due to the lack of another hormone, that’s a diagnosed need and I will die of dehydration without it, so don’t even go there; I’ve already had that lecture from strangers in Wal-Mart or friends at a dinner table in public.)

At the same time, imagine your disease is CAUSING extreme, uncontrollable weight gain.  That’s one of the most obvious symptoms –it’s not the disease, it’s a SYMPTOM!  It doesn’t matter how many calories you cut or how perfect your diet is, the weight just keeps piling on.  At very best you can maintain (not lose), but even that isn’t possible for most.  It centers around your face (moon facies), your neck (sub-clavicular fat pads, buffalo hump, big chin), and your abdomen.  It is both firm on top (almost hard like a pregnancy belly) and soft on the bottom and hanging down (pendulous abdomen).  You CAN eat low-carb, low-starch, low-sugar to try to slow the onset of diabetes and weight gain, but you cannot stop what the chemicals in your body are doing.  Cortisol is directly involved in blood sugar within the body, and it can be catastrophic when either too high or too low.  For example, I eat roughly the same diet.  It isn’t perfect by ANY means, and I have variations, but in a high I gain between .5-2lbs a day and on that same diet in a low, I lose .25-.5 pounds a day.  It isn’t my diet, it is my cortisol levels…and the highs are outstripping the lows.  I’m in a pattern of slow gain, but it is very disheartening to see.

I mean, we need to use reason here.  If you are able to continue to exercise (strenuous is NOT recommended, I was flat-out told not to do that anymore), obviously it is a good idea to maintain as much muscle mass and strength as you can.  That said, I do NOT gain more energy if I use what I have.  Backwards perhaps, but true.  I don’t get rejuvenation from sleep either…often waking up feeling as tired as when I went to bed (Cushing’s messes up your sleep cycles, if you can get sleep).  Obviously it is wise to eat well, but remember most of us are dead broke with all these medical bills (and healthy food DOES cost more) and in my case, I am unable to cook any more.  I used to cook from scratch and eat a very clean diet, now even the energy to put a frozen meal in the oven, then remove it and dish it up later is too much most days.  We know that eating better is good for our bodies.  But, the reality is that being perfect in these things will not stop the disease nor it’s effects on our bodies.  Even if you mean well, please don’t say things that suggest we could stop it if we just tried harder or made a little change ourselves –it is hurtful and even if you don’t mean to, pushes blame onto us.

Now, I really need to explain the “broken” thing.  Our hormone systems (at least in the pituitary) generally work in feedback loops.  Parts in the brain take in information about our body’s condition, external environment, emotions, etc.  It interprets that information and makes judgments about what our body needs more or less of and sends the appropriate signals to other parts of the body (like the pituitary).  The pituitary then sends out stimulating hormones (in the case of Cushing’s, ACTH – Adrenocorticotropic Hormone) that tell other glands to produce their various hormones for use.  Again, in the case of Cushing’s, ACTH stimulates Cortisol specifically.  When there is sufficient cortisol in the body, it “feeds back” to the brain and pituitary that there is sufficient and the production of ACTH stops/drops.

With Cushing’s, that loop is broken.  Really broken.  There is a tumor getting in the way and throwing everything off.  The tumor produces ACTH on it’s own, stimulating cortisol production by the adrenals.  That in turn shuts down the pituitary from producing it, because there is already enough or too much.  It means that our bodies don’t react normally to internal nor external stressors.  We have FAR too much cortisol at night, when it should be almost non-existent in the body to allow for sleep.  We can have low cortisol during the day when we need it to be active.  We can be “revved up” like we’re running a marathon while sitting on a chair, resting.  But it also means that when we are stressed, ill (just a cold, even), in pain, or exerting extra energy, our body does not have the feedback to produce more cortisol to allow us to function appropriately.

This is why even in a high cortisol day, if I overdo it, I can crash so hard I can’t keep my eyes open.  Why I can become so cold that blankets, warm clothes and a wood stove (on an already warm day) cannot warm me up.  Why I can become nauseated (another low symptom) and that can lead to serious danger (Look up adrenal crisis).  You see, if I use up whatever my tumor is producing, generally speaking, my pituitary doesn’t fill in the gap because it is suppressed (asleep).  It doesn’t say “She’s doing too much, let’s produce more hormones so she can get through it.”  I’ve noticed this happen in cortisol highs and lows.  Generally I’m FAR more careful in a low because I already know my body cannot handle much of anything, but there were times when I would push myself in a high to get a job done, and then I would crash and burn.  It was bad news and I didn’t understand how dangerous it was at the time (okay, I still do it sometimes, but I REALLY try not to).  And sadly, unlike the normal progression of tiring while exerting yourself, it generally didn’t come with any warning signs.  I was capable, then I wasn’t.  It was sudden.  I cannot tell when I am coming up on that wall, but once I hit it, it is too late.  I am ill, not just a little tired.  And because sleep only does a little in my Cushing’s situation, I don’t start fresh tomorrow.  Now I’m in the whole…one I might not recover from.  This new level of exhaustion at times has become my new “normal.”  It’s bad news, but it’s my life.  So if I say something as silly as driving in “Nowhere, Alaska” is too stressful, I mean it.  It can make me physically ill, and it doesn’t mean I mentally stress over it..it is my body recognizing the energy drain.  I cannot lose any more of what I currently have…there just isn’t enough left.

I know this sounds so negative and depressing.  It is.  It wasn’t my intent to end that way, but the reality is, this disease hurts us so much already, we don’t need misunderstanding (even misguided desires to help) causing us more.  And seriously, just ask!  We would love nothing more than to educate others about what we’re going through.  We know it is so convoluted and overwhelming and that you can only handle little tidbits at a time, but any understanding is better than none.  It can be so hard for us not to do those things we used to, especially things we consider necessary, simple, or things we love and enjoy, and it helps to have someone understand that and not pressure us into doing more than we should or judging us for not reacting like we used to.  We still want to be friends and would love nothing more than to help you or go do those fun things with you…we just know our limits.  Stick by us and please don’t take it personally.